Who am I?

So I came across some Tiktoks that got me to rethink my life. Or my feelings.
  1. Doing something and being good at it. For example, drawing. I don't have to be good at it to enjoy it.

DFFGHLIJ;OL

Fuck me. No, it's not an invitation. I am seriously lost. I feel lost, I feel down. I should sleep but I can't or don't want to or not sleepy enoug