Why does everyday I feel like I’m not doing anything? Or I don’t do enough?
T: I didn’t do anything today
F: Restless, irritated. Disappointin
I got the RM10k I cashed out from Prudential, the one I intended on paying my credit card. I was looking forward to get it and was excited when I fina
I guess I know why I don’t talk much with Syam. As in, I’m not doing most of the talking. Because he incapable of understanding. Dia rasa mcm aku nak attack dia je, and makes decisions all reactively. And it makes me more quiet and not wanting to talk to him.
So I joined the BNI group. Privilege, Puchong branch. But I'm not excited about it now.
It's not just with BNI; it's with other things as well. It's like... I feel excited at the moment, and when it passes, it's like, meh. When I remember it back, it doesn't feel as exciting anymore. It just feels like any other uneventful moment in my life.
For example the woodworking class, the PACE business network. I definitely learn something from those classes, but I couldn't recreate the feeling of 'excited-ness' from that moment. Is that normal?
How can I feel the sense of excitement going to EuroTrip? Switzerland?
I actually, I don't. I don't feel a sense of excitement when I look through photos of our EuroTrip. I felt a sense of longing. Of wanting to go back.
I guess it really just about my thoughts of it. I thought Switzerland was beautiful and pictured myself seeing the view every day. So the feeling I had was to miss it and to want to go back. I even feel it now as I type.
Ok, what about BNI then?
I can think of a few reasons why I'm not excited. Because it starts at 6:30 am, all the way in Puchong, I have a small baby, and they're like 85% Chinese, 14.9% Indian and 2 Malays. Lol. I guess I have that reservation, would I actually get business from them?
I might need to do a model on this. But how ah? What do I want to achieve?
I want to feel excited and looking forward to mingle and meet new people. I want to be confident introducing myself and my company to other people. I want to be better at explaining what I do. And from all of that, I would like to get feedback on how to improve myself and also get new businesses.
So there's the model.
And here I am. Typing away because I'm out of book to write in and I don't want to use the other Leuchtturm I have. I'm going to browse online for boo