There’s not enough time in the world, is it?

I have to say, I'm a bit disappointed with myself. I'm not able to wake up early in the mornings anymore. Well, that was true last week, but I did manage to wake up this week, just that Fariz was being cranky and sick, so I had to lay in bed. Nevertheless, still disappointed because I wanted to do 7thlumen invoices yesterday & this morning, but I didn't. I feel like there's not enough time in the world to do everything I need to do. I wish there was more time. I wish I was more efficient. I feel down now. Maybe that's why I'm reluctant to achieve RM10,000 salary target. Because I can't manage my time properly and sticking to it, so I don't think I can get RM10,000. At this point, I have this burning desire to stop journaling and list down to dos and plot them in my calendar lol. But I can't do that, no. That's reacting. If I keep giving in to my impulses, I'm never getting anything done. Ok, so I want to try sticking to my planned time today. Can I? Let's try today. What do I need to do, and what do I think I CAN do today?

    Nak gaji RM10 ribu la

    But why ah? Because I think it can make my problems go away? I don't know that. It's a nice figure to have? I can buy a lot of things with it? I can spend RM100 a day.

    Capacity to have WORK.

    Hey. How are you this morning? Not feeling great, actually. Bad sore throat, mucous around my eyes and red eyes. My breath feels hot. Maybe I feel worse because I didn't sleep a full 7-hour sleep, doing that Hangyul line art.

    Early morning TD

    I hadn’t done this before, thought downloading while still in bed, while nursing. I usually prefer it when I’m sitting and no one bothering me. But I need to journal now. I guess I can do like this every morning. It IS me time to thought download, just not free from hand and not how I imagined it.

    Thought Download 19.11.2019

    There's a heaviness in my body, this morning. I'm not sure if it's because of the lack of sleep, overthinking, work, sadness or whatever else lahhh. But I'm definitely feeling very tired today. Lately, actually. It's been a few days. Of tiredness.

    Nov 15, 2019

    Ever since my dad was admitted to the hospital, I didn't know what to feel. I didn't know what to think. I didn't know if I should feel sad. I know by right, by basic, normal human standards, I would feel sad. And I probably did, but I didn't want to feel it.

    TD Business Goal: Day 7

    7thlumen business goal: Achieve a revenue of RM1Mil from Feb 2019 – Feb 2020, to pay overhead & be profitable.

    TD Business Goal: Day 6

    7thlumen business goal: Achieve a revenue of RM1Mil from Feb 2019 – Feb 2020, to pay overhead & be profitable.

    TD Business Goal: Day 5

    7thlumen business goal: Achieve a revenue of RM1Mil from Feb 2019 – Feb 2020, to pay overhead & be profitable.