No helpers tomorrow

I’ve been really caught up with work lately. Even pagi ni pun aku nak buat kerja when I could, and really should journal. Hm

So many feelings, that it just becomes one big ball. I’m questioning a lot of things, one of it is- was it a bad thing to leave BNI? I feel the left out feeling suddenly. Feel rejected. Suddenly. I feel like it’s not fair to them pula I leave suddenly. Lol.

Am I having an attack? Possibly. I’m having trouble breathing smoothly. I’m trying to distract myself with other things than journalling.

Well, at least Nani dah bangun to make breakfast. Tomorrow will be my turn. And the next day, and the next and onwards. Tomorrow will see how I handle/react/manage the kids in the morning with breakfast (two separate times) and mandi as well.

Can I bring this monitor to work? I like it. It’s huge.

I should go wake them up. Tonight I will sleep early. In fact, I have to sleep early. If I want a bit of “me time” like this, I’d have to wake up at 5am.

  • Wake up 5am, journal, me time
  • 6am make breakfast
  • 6:30am wake up kids
  • 7:00am abang-abang breakfast
  • 7:30am mandikan adik-adik
  • 8:00am adik-adik breakfast
  • 8:30am leave house

So bila yang aku mandi? Maybe when abang2 breakfast, Syam mandi, then aku mandi when adik2 breakfast and Syam dah balik after hantar abang2 to school. So I have to sleep at 9pm. LOL

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