Bila aku tengok the title “Branding Consultant” kat title BNI aku, I feel like such a fraud. On instinct, it doesn’t sit right with me. I can actually feel my body rejecting it. Macam2 la dalam kepala otak aku sekarang. I’m trying to rationalise, trying to justify, trying to reject the negative feeling I have.
Aku rasa nak quit BNI, tapi baru bayar and rugi la sebab kenal ramai orang kat sini. Can expand network, etc etc. I don’t know. Banyak sangat thoughts in my head that my conclusion is, I’m lost. Aku malas fikir.
But it’s making me tired. I’m literally feeling sleepy.
But it’s so contradicting tau. Like, what do I do? Do I listen to my heart and quit or do I listen to my brain and push through? Like, how do I know if I’m just being a whimp or this is the right decision? I don’t. That’s the thing.
I don’t like doing branding. It’s not me. Should I change to graphic design? I don’t know. I don’t want to do anything ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I want to do something I know to do. Like crochet, knitting, coding. Things I know! jkdsajk
I’ll come back to this later.