Maybe my thoughts are:
“I have a lot of kids, I’m too busy with my kids to think about my business, to get out of this place.”
Maybe I’m scared of actually making it. So having more kids is my excuse for handouts (from my mom especially). Or sympathy & empathy.
As in, my kids are my scapegoat for not getting any jobs done and I expect people to understand my situation and exempt me from responsibilities.
Wow. What an eye-opener.
I feel attacked. Maybe because it’s the truth. I feel ashamed. I feel called out. I feel… sad?
I’m using my kids as an excuse. When I’ve been telling myself I don’t want to do that. Yet, I am doing it.