ey ya, how are you? I have not been journaling for a long time. A month. Neither have I had any therapy sessions with Vasos.
I don’t feel like there’s a need to do a session yet, but I think journaling is a long time coming.
Nothing necessarily wrong. It’s CMCO again, the schools are closed and routine is a getting… chaotic. There’s no sense of boundary between work and personal life. I feel tired easily and also feel overwhelmed easily. Which then leads me to feel like not doing anything because I don’t know where to start and then me feeling guilty not doing anything. Even though I have a to-do list, I don’t seem to have the energy or will, even, to do it.
I should probably try to do a schedule, I suppose? Let’s see:
|9:30 am||Faiq’s class|
|10:30 am||Sunbathe 15 minutes while reading|
|11:30 am||Faiq class|
|3:00pm||Work + Faiz homework|
|5:00pm||Take a walk outside|
Ok, so I sort of have a rough schedule drafted out. I would need to compare this to the actual time the kids wake up. Now, my biggest obstacle will be Syam. He has a mind of his own and will suddenly decide when to eat or go out and buy stuff. Which can and will disrupt the timetable. Of course, there’s also my energy level, kids’ wake up time and their attitude of the day.
Obstacles / variables & how to deal with it:
- Syam: Let him know my plan, my schedule and why I’m doing it.
- Kids wake up / sleep schedule: Monitor and compare.
- My energy level: Monitor & compare. Discipline.
- Mama’s availability: Ask & inform earlier.
- Weather: Think of alternative activity to do.
I’ve also printed out a spreadsheet to compare and collect data. We’ll see how it goes. I have to go bathe in 2 minutes, goodbye.
On the side note, this little activity did make me feel a bit better. And changing “I have to go bathe” to, “Oh I’m still in free play mode, I can go bathe if I choose to’ makes me feel a WHOLE lot better!