Today is Syam’s birthday.
Yesterday, if I’m not mistaken, I was questioning my whole Figment project. It’s come up for a while actually. When I’m sewing or making the bags, I question the purpose. Betul ke apa aku buat ni. Tak buang masa ke apa yang aku buat ni. Because I’m not seeing results. I’ve put it a lot of effort and hours, to the point that it interferes my 7thlumen work, because I wanted to get it done. Because I’m behind schedule.
Of course, the bags are not 100% done yet. So I can’t do anything yet. No photos, no social media posts, so I can ‘t see results yet. But… what worries me is also the speed at which I’m making the bags. I don’t know if I’m able to get it all done on time.
I’m already easily tired, I make a lot of mistakes, I have 7thlumen work most of the day, I can’t rely on Aunty.
I’ve already spent a lot of time, energy and money in making the bags, I don’t want to just give it all up. I haven’t done proper marketing for it yet, so I really don’t want to throw in the towel. When I have these doubts, I still keep on doing it, but I don’t like it, the thoughts.
I think the only way for me now is just finish up the bags. It’s really not that much anymore. Assembling 9 more 8×4 bags, and then sewing all 24 of them shut.
It’s not that I can’t rely on Aunty. Her work is fine, it’s just the time. I gave her the stuff to be done in 2 weeks, but even after 4 weeks, she’s not even halfway through. I am disappointed.
I need to revisit my plan again. Especially on the number of bags I want to make before I go off on confinement.
But for now, I’m going to focus on getting the bags done for photoshoot, ASAP. Hopefully tomorrow. Nope, by tomorrow.