Woke up, made myself nasi goreng. I should’ve let the ingredients to cook for a while longer, added more cili padi and put a little less oyster sauce, but other than that, I’m proud of myself.
It seems like I have no thoughts to pour out, it seems. But the mind is a wonderful thing, I’m sure something will come out. Haha. Well, maybe if I don’t have a thought to write out, then I can plant in thoughts for the day.
The thoughts I’m probably unconsciously having is… I’m sleepy, I want to chill, I want to watch Netflix and lie around. Actually, those are not thoughts, they’re feeling. So what is the thought causing it? “I have nothing to do”, “I don’t know what to do”. But I DO have things to do (that I want to do or have to do):
- Check how banks give loan.
- 7thlumen social media content marketing.
- Marketing PT webinar title and content.
- 7thlumen case studies.
- 7thlumen sales framework.
- 7thlumen website.
- My blog’s website design.
- Buy Nespresso.
I’m pretty sure there’s more, but that’s all I can think of now. So I DO have things to do, but I’m choosing NOT to do it. Why? Why is this feeling of laziness so overpowering? I want to be willing to do things rather than feeling forced to do it. Maybe I can try by acting out positive scenarios that the tasks will give me. Instead of thinking about what I have to do to get it done, think about what positive things it will bring WHEN it is done.
Ok, let’s try:
|Things to do||Positive Outcome|
|Check how banks give loan.||I will be more prepared and more likely to put aside money for personal EPF contributions when I know how much is needed.|
|7thlumen social media content marketing.||7thlumen will have more visibility and will potentially get more enquiries.|
|Marketing PT webinar title and content.||I will look more credible and possibly have more points.|
|7thlumen case studies.||It will be easier and quicker to make proposals for new clients.|
|7thlumen sales framework.||I will be more prepared to meet clients and ask for business when a framework has been set.|
|7thlumen website.||7thlumen will have more online presence and feel more reliable when clients see we have a website.|
|My blog’s website design.||My creative expression will be fulfilled, and I will be satisfied.|
|Buy Nespresso.||My caffeine addiction will be met.|
Well, it doesn’t necessarily make me feel better, other than the first two. The others (exclude the last one) feels like I’m reasoning with myself, bargaining like. Nah, I think it was just the marketing PT webinar that made me feel, “meh” and affected all other tasks.
I’m really thinking that BNI is a waste of time. Is it? Is it just because of MCO? Is it that I don’t want to be in public? It makes me uncomfortable? Yes, yes it does. It’s like, I’m at home, don’t kacau me. I’m at home, it’s my personal space and time, even though I’m supposed to be working, but I’m at home. I don’t want to talk to people when I’m at home.
But that’s the thing. I’m not at home because its the weekend. I’m not at home because I’m on vacation. I’m at home because of MCO, because the offices, schools and kindergartens are closed. But working hours is still the same. What can help me with this? Own office space? Assign the room upstairs for work area?
I want to work on this. I want to work on my thoughts about BNI.