I’m not noticing any thoughts other than I’m surprised I’m not hungry. I’m in a neutral state now, my mood is not high or low. My thoughts are neither negative or positive.
I want to send Maryam’s manual over today.
I want to finish designing my blog.
I want to do case studies for 7thlumen.
I don’t want to do the PT marketing webinar. Why?
- I don’t know what to talk about.
- I feel like a fraud.
- It’s a waste of my time.
- They’re not my target audience.
- I just want to sit in the backseat.
- I’m not in the mood.
- I don’t want to do another presentation.
- I suck.
- I don’t know what to talk about.
- I’ve never actually done branding.
- I have to catch up on all the branding tutorials.
- Who the fuck came out with this thing anyway?
- I’m already feeling so low staying at home this long with the kids. Now I have to work extra with the kids calling me every 2 minutes. I can’t even string a proper thought in 2 minutes.
All these thoughts are giving me – anger, resistance, hate, dislike, rebelling.
Actions – procrastinating, rejecting, not doing it.
Results – feeling anxious & more resistance.
So what can I do?
- Tell them I don’t want to participate. Consequences?
- I’m going to feel left out, although I decided not join.
- They probably won’t invite me to do anything else.
- Even if they’re ok with it, it’s going to to affect their view on me as a business person.
- My credibility will be going down.
- Adjust my thoughts and just go with it.
– Why don’t I want to do it?
Because I don’t know what to say?
– Why?
Because I’ve never actually done branding before.
– Why?
Because this is my first time. I’ve been a front end developer all my life.
– What do you need to do to do the presentation?
Shaii didn’t know what she was talking about when she did the mobile responsive presentation. I guess I needed to “be the expert”. I’m going to present to people who have no idea what I’m doing or the industry. I need to be “great” at what I do, even if I’m not. Fake it, basically.
– Do you want to do it?
I’m apathetic, bordering apprehensive. But I know I have to go through it anyway, they’re not going to let me off the hook. Ughhh I hate “have”. It changes the mood to everything.
– Do you want to do it?
I want to do it, but I don’t know what to talk about.
I want to do it, and I know what I want to talk about that will benefit the audience. It just hasn’t come yet.
I want to do the marketing presentation, and I know what I want to talk about that will benefit the audience and it’s coming to me. The idea is on it’s way to me. I will have it by 4pm today.